|Posted on April 26, 2017 at 8:55 PM||comments (3)|
For the last few weeks, I've been getting that 'look'. The 'have you really still not had that baby?' look. The 'why are you still working?' look. I've waddled through the halls at work, made many a trip to Jackson for doctor's visits, spent some much needed time with Caleb and my dogs, and crashed on the couch as much as I possibly can. We are grateful to have made it to this stage of our pregnancy and look forward to meeting our biggest blessing next week (if not before)!
Many of you may have already heard, but the news just got out this week. I made the heartbreaking decision to turn in my resignation on Monday instead of a signed contract to the Philadelphia Public School District. It was, by far, one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to made. That school has been one of the biggest parts of my heart for over two decades and they did nothing but love me and treat me well over the last three years. But ever since I found out I was pregnant this past fall, my heart has seriously been torn over the decision to return to the career that I love and the desire to spend some time at home with my daughter. It took a lot of sleepless nights, long conversations, and deep, intentional prayers for me to clearly see and understand that I only get this chance ONE time. I only get Bailey's first year once. I don't know what the future holds for us...this is a BIG, life-chaging decision. But I feel that God has paved the way and instead of returning to the classroom this fall, I will be staying at home with Bailey.
If you'd told me last April that I'd be just days away from having a baby and that I wouldn't be teaching this Kindergarten this fall at PES, I would've laughed, But there's no doubt that God has been dealing with me over the last year. So, here's a short recap.
Last summer, I felt two very strong feelings.. two that scared me more than I was willing to actually admit. One was that I felt Caleb and I were going to experience a big move church wise. Two weeks later, I found out my Granddaddy was retiring after 63 years in the ministry. The other was that I felt like it would be my last time (for a while) to prep a classroom.. God had been dealing with me on some other ideas and a direction on where my life might go next. And a month later, I found out I was pregnant. Due in May.
My world was literally rocked in the matter of a couple days, but as I look back, I know it was God's plan... His perfectly timed plan. I dealt with these unresolved feelings for months before I actually broke down and told Caleb and my family.
I started feeling this tugging in my heart that Summer of Art wasn't my only option in the art world. I decided to send an email in January, and we had a wonderful response...God had pushed me and nagged at my heart till I knew I was finally ready to see what could come of it! Over the past five years, I have had countless people ask me if I would consider teaching lessons during the school year. I've always said, no, that I didn't have time. But God has literally blindsided me with the fact that I cannot let this go. I have almost completed (and plan to use this summer to finish) a faith-based art curriculum in hopes of reaching our community and area through Art. So, it's here. I'm finally giving in because I feel like God has placed this on my heart and this is what I'm supposed to do.
I still have a lot of planning and prepping to do in order to wrap my head around ALL of this. But thankfully, I do have this summer. At home. Although most of my time will be occupied with a newborn! If everything goes as planned, we will have registration in July and will begin lessons in August! If you want some more information, shoot me an email ([email protected]).
Pray for us as we prepare for the arrival of our Princess. Pray for us as we dig deeper into this adventure and all that God has to come.
"To everything there is a season..." -Ecclesiastes 3